Continued: Sample from “terry”- Kim sarnt

Written by Shane Smith

Can I go now, Daddy? I got to go to school now. Love you too. Aw, I love how you hug me. Oh, dear. I can’t be late. I never knew why aquatic vulpines had strong legs – they didn’t need them most of the time, but then it could be because of the fish tails. Just know that they help you get through gym class, Kim. I’ll see you in film today. Well, I’ll see you too. Sad that you’re trapped on the celluloid – I would totally free you and let you embrace my hand. I wonder what church Daddy’s going to preach at. I can’t wait until Sunday – that’s when he’s announcing the cast for the pageant. Are you coming? Yes, I am, but I have to be in your mind. The crash happened so fast – we were minding our own business down Ventura Highway, singing the song, when it hit us. Mom and Dad were thrown out of the vehicle and looked something like Buddy Holly’s corpse in the cornfield. They were yellow all over – it must’ve been the brain matter. Whatever it is, I just want to say to them that I miss them. Daddy isn’t doing me too well. When he isn’t studying for his sermon, he wants me to skate with him over at the Knoxville Skate Park. When he isn’t having fun, he wants me to bare my paws and take pictures. I’ll show him – I’ll take my own pictures. I have the fluid in my closet. I can place the negatives on paper via the fluid. I don’t know why God made aquatic vulpines to have wet, webbed paws in land/fresh water form. I wish I could find me a spiked lake. I could place one paw in the water and see what happens. Would it transpire? No, it wouldn’t. Your leg would become scaly and your paw would flatten to look like a duck’s. You’ve done it in the shower before – why would you want to do it again? Because, Perry, it’s so exciting to do the forbidden fruit. That’s why everything God creates revels in sin – simple free will. Am I really happy with you? I’m starting to doubt myself – my mother swam to get away from the life. I don’t think she loved me. Kim, I loved you when I was alive – I swam to see the world my parents saw. If I could cry underwater, I would’ve bawled tears because I had to give up that world. Oh, hello, Mrs. Saint. Call me Mrs. Stewart – Mrs. Saint does not exist at the moment. However, I’m concerning of what Freddy’s going to my little girl. Mom, I’m not little anymore. Oh, yes you are. How come I’m still inside you? You haven’t reached the age. She has, Mrs. Stewart. If you have not noticed me, I’m Perry Smith – Kim’s boyfriend. Why is a cold-blooded killer my girl’s boyfriend? Why would she fall in love with you? I told her no Electra Glide in Blue or any Robert Blake film because she would fall in love with you. I guess Freddy’s poisoning her mind. I’m not that evil, Mrs. Stewart. The only reason why people called me evil was that I had to do it or else I was nothing. It was either Willie Jay with acceptance to my ideas, Dick with the job, or back to my dad in Alaska. He would’ve broken my guitar if I came back there. You were hung, sir. Now go on. Well, she’s not in love with me as she is with him. I see what you’re talking about – I felt betrayed when he gave up his companion for some Chinese lady his companion adopted with a composer. She’s Korean, Mrs. Stewart. Even I know that. How do you know? You died in ’65. I’m alive in her mind. Mom! Perry! Stop arguing! I want to have my own individuality when I’m driving in the car. Play the song, Kim. Play it to spite your mom. I won’t have any of that nonsense, Perry. Don’t play it, Kim. Mom, I will play it. I don’t care if Maury sees me crying due to the memory – I will play it. Now, what CD was it? Here it is – Spiderland. I always liked the cover gotta focus on the road Kim well here’s a stoplight. I’ll just put that in there. And it begins: my trial. Oh, God – Kim, will you ever learn? Your bold steps will lead you into trouble. I think it would be better if you stuck with Quentin. But he’s bi, Mom! Mrs. Stewart, I think you need to listen to your daughter a bit more – you may be dead, like me, but you know one thing: she inherited your bravado. How do you know about that, you thief? You stole lives from communities! I regret the murders – I still think he was a nice man despite the throat. It was Dick’s idea – he peeved me to killing all of them. Perry, shut up. He’s talking about the fortuneteller. I’m her. I’m the one who stays rigid until he saves me – my white knight. Then the ascension comes. I must go fast. I need to let the tears not get to me. 45…50…55…58…62…64… It’s coming back – my speed won’t do it. I need to get to Maury. He will fix me. The squeak comes – the bloodied bodies on the road and they survived without a scratch! Why, God? Why must You mess with me like this? Are you that sadistic, you Egomaniac? She’s now only a part of my mind because of Kim be quiet He doesn’t want to hear you curse his name. Mom, He has tortured me enough. It’s not my fault I have to be around you and Perry all the time. Oh, be quiet. Mr. Smith’s been in your mind since June. What makes you think Perry existed I always existed Mrs. Stewart I always existed ever since she was born. Stop it. Both of you shut up! I want you to get out of my mind at school, OK? I’m not sure – you’re already shocked by my death so much, being reminded of Perry’s fatalism would only worsen the effects. I’ll sleep it off. No, Kim – nobody sleeps through death. Here’s Maury’s house – now y’all shut up in trade for dry eyes. He doesn’t get it.